Fertility Appointment

Well our fertility doctor appointment didn't turn out quite like we had hoped. My left fallopian tube is blocked so heavily and with so much fluid, that it is pushing the fluid back into my cervix. If they tried invitro right now, the fluid from the tube would push out the embroys or be toxic to them. So trying invitro at this point would be pointless.

It is called a Hydrosalpinx. A hydrosalpinx is a fallopian tube that is filled with fluid. Injury to the end of the fallopian tube, the ampulla, and its delicate fingers, the fimbria, causes the end of the tube to close. Glands within the tube produce a watery fluid that collects within the tube, producing a sausage shaped swelling that is characteristic of hydrosalpinx.

So, I am having surgery Sept 4th to remove my left fallopian tube- which is rough b/c it is the only tube attached to an ovary since my right ovary is gone. Hopefully removing the tube will then allow us to start invitro after I am healed from surgery. Please pray that the surgery goes well and that we can proceed from there with invitro without any more bumps in the road.

Its hard right now because my insurance from Stuart's school doesn't take into effect until October. It doesn't cover infertility or treatments or anything...but it would cover the surgery- but since I have no insurance right now, it will have to come out of our pocket. We are starting to get a little stressed about the money situation- but I know God will take care of everything!

It is getting just a little bit harder each time. It is starting to take a toll on me. I am trying to stay strong and positive. I know God will be faithful- I just have to trust Him. Please be in prayer for Stuart and I. Stuart is starting basketball season soon and I am praying we get all this behind us and will hopefully be pregnant before the season gets too indepth.

We covet all your prayers right now. I have this poem that I found and I would like to post it. It just depicts all of my emotions right now.

What God Meant When He Gave Me Infertility

What do I think God meant when he gave me infertility? I think he meant for my husband and me to grow closer, become stronger, love deeper. I think God meant for us to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down. I think God meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols. I think God meant for us to find a cure for infertility.

No, God never meant for me not to have children. That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on. I've been placed on the road less traveled, and, like it or not, I'm a better person for it. Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and a greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let Him down.

Frankly, if the truth be known, I think God has singled me out for a special treatment. I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known. While I would never choose infertility, I can not deny that a fertile woman could never know the joy that awaits me. Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own!