IVF #2

Well, here we go. Today actually starts the real day. I will start my Lupron shots today. I will take those until close to the day of the egg retrieval. I am stopping my BCP on the26th. Then I will call the clinic with the monthly visit and then we will start the stim shots! I am ready! This has happened so quickly, but like a month ago when I was taking the pill, I was thinking...this is taking forever!

I am ready to get this going. I am nervous, but it is out of my hands. There is nothing more I can do. I've been reading this book a night when I take my nightly bath :-) It is a really good book. I would suggest this book to anyone dealing with Infertility! It is called "Infertility- Finding God's Peace in the Journey" by Lois Flowers.

Now I wont go into details, but I have been dealing a lot with issues of people having babies, getting pregnant, etc. Who, well....I don't know. Someone who has a child, doesn't really do much for that child and then got the girl pregnant again...not married and will probably never get married...I just think alot about why these other people and not me. In this book...she talked about the story of The Horse and His Boy- from the Chronicles of Narnia- talks about how God protects us and lovingly guides our paths, even when we don't realize it. But one passage really grabs my attention- "I am telling you your own story, not hers. I tell no one any story but his own."

The things that happen in the lives of other people- including their pregnancies, no matter how undeserved or unwanted they may be- are part of "their story". It is not my responsibility nor my business to know why God allows them to happen.

I am having to remember to separate myself from what is going on in other people's lives and recognize that what is happening to them has nothing to do with me. The fact that my friend is pregnant and I am not does not mean she has God's blessings on her life and I don't. It simply means that God's plan for her right now includes a baby and His plan for me right now does not.

So I am challenging myself and those of you who are going through infertility with me to use the mindset "This is my story, not theirs". We need to remember this. Right now, my story is the start of a 2nd IVF attempt and one I am praying desperately works. I am hoping and praying that this is part of God's plan and that it will include a baby at the end of it.

Thank you all for your prayers! Have a Merry Christmas and enjoy this time with your family and friends! I will keep you posted!

In His Grip,
Sarah Creamer