WOW! I totally didn't even realize it has been so long since I posted. I keep telling myself I am going to get better and post more...then I do for about 2 days! Ha
We have been so busy lately. I have been busy preparing for our local pageant. I am on the pageant committee and this year is the 50th anniversary of the pageant. We were contacting and having all former queens return for a reunion. So, 11 years ago I won the pageant. We had our old pictures up and I was thinking..."Man, that was like 30-40 lbs ago." I guess that's what happens when you gain 20 pounds on fertility drugs for 2 years...plus the 50 I gained with Ayla...so...70 lbs ago! Holy Moly!!!
I have taken off the Ayla pounds but the fertility drug pounds...they don't want to move. Very frustrating. I'm not sure if we will do IVF again, but if we did...that would be more fertility drug pounds. YIKES!
I must say that over the past 2 weeks...there have been about 6-7 baby announcements. I will admit that the "punch in the stomach" reaction does not go away...even after having our miracle. I feel guilty for getting a tad emotional and upset thinking...I may never get to have another baby. Because then I think...how selfish of me. We were finally blessed with our miracle and there are still so many of you waiting for your first miracle. So forgive me. I am MORE than happy and blessed with our miracle. If I never have another baby, I am still so thankful and so in love with Ayla. She is everything! She is more than everything. She is the definition of "God's Faithfulness"! She is the little embryo that God breathed life into.
So, for those of you still waiting...I am praying that you will be shown God's faithfulness and for Him to show you just how much He loves you. Though you may be waiting...wait patiently...though it may be slow in coming...wait...it will surely come! Habakkuk 2:3
Eden...move out of my way! I've got places to go!
Flip baby flip!
Ayla loves to "play" scream! She was screaming to see if she could get Eden to scream with her.
Ayla loves going to gymnastics. Mommy does too! We have so much fun.
Ayla is protesting...she doesn't want to leave gymnastics!
Now she's happy!
Ayla loves to help "clean" the floors with mommy!
I love to ride in my car
Ayla loves to help "clean" the floors with mommy!I love to ride in my carCheering on the Hogs at Granny and Poppy's house
Thank you for all your help cleaning out the drawers Ayla
Ok, let's be honest...did you know you could totally rock the diaper wedgie? I didn't think you could get a wedgie in a diaper...but this princess it totally rocking the diaper wedgie!
3 comments:
haha! Love the wedgie diaper! Who knew? But I am learning that our kiddos surprise us everyday :) I feel you on the IF stuff! I am struggling with that feeling of getting kicked in the stomach as well. I guess that never will go away, but I am hoping it will one day!!!! As always I love you sweet Sarah :))) Hugs sent your way and girl you better blog more...I gotta see Ayla more often!! She is GORGEOUS!!!!! Like her momma!!!
My goodness she is a little doll. haha She is starting to look so grown up.
I have really enjoyed watching her journey so far. Keep them coming no matter how far between the posts are.
Even after 2 IVF miracles, I still feel that pit in my stomach about not being able to just have another baby if/when we want. I know that we will not be doing IVF again (unless maybe we win the lottery, that we don't play), but deep down I really would like to have more children. Since it's not an issue with me, I don't think it's really possible. It's hard not to feel selfish or greedy, but the pain of infertility and just not having control over it still hurts. When people ask if we are having more and I say no, they always say "you never know". It's hard to say "Yes, we do know". :(
I also feel ya on the baby weight. I have lost all my Maggie weight (plus about 5 lbs), but now I've got Caroline weight to lose! I gained 70 with Caroline and was only down about 20 lbs when I got pregnant with Maggie. Then I gained 50 with her!! When I get back to my goal weight (which I know I WILL someday), I will have lost 100 lbs!! :)
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