This one is Stuart, Mom and Matt skycoasting...Mom is acting like she is scared...however she has done this 4 times! So she is really a pro...Stuart has never done this and he wasn't so sure about it. Good Job Babe!
Here we are eating at Ruth's Chris Steakhouse- Yummy!
Here is Mom and Dad before eating at Ruth's Chris!
Stuart and I at "The Track"! We had a great time playing and riding go-karts!
Last but not least....well, I am not sure what to say about this one...but aren't we some sexy beach kitties! MEOW!
First I had a small meltdown last night...I lost at our Catan game and then I just got mad when I went to bed. I started crying about not wanting to have to do this again...I mean, who goes through IVF 5 times? Possibly me...lovely...then I started thinking about my doggies and I miss them. I know they are in good hands with Ms. Crystal...but they are my babies and they need their mommy. Then I keep thinking...this has to work. I keep going back looking at my blastocyst and thinking...these are perfect...how could they not work? People get pregnant with 8 cells and what if I didn't even with a blast?
Here is my inner monologue for today...I can't do this...I can do this...I have to do this...should I pee on a stick...I don't want to do that...I do want to do that...is it too early...I can't handle a negative again...I have never seen a positive...what if mine is positive...I just wanna cry...and cry...and cry...and cry...good or bad...cry...cry...cry...I am just tired of it all. I just want to be a mommy and I want this to work this time...it has to...will it?
God will still be the same...yesterday...today...and forever...all I can do is trust and give it ALL up to Him, no matter the outcome! Lord, give me peace and strength to go through this...I need only the peace and assurance You can give!
